feedtheartist

Wow, I really need to do better. Time must evaporate, because I cannot believe it has been a month plus since I made a post. Life has been a blur of work, baby and family obligations. I have my birth story/Sentara Leigh hospital review to post, accumulated restaurant reviews and product reviews. I write them on my laptop, but only think to post them when I am on my desktop.

My big thought right now is that if you are thinking about having a baby, make sure you are in a position to stay home. When I have to go into the office, I feel detached from my son and worried about him. He is a mommy addict, so I hate having him stressed by me not being present. When I am working at home, I want to play with him but I can’t. My grandmother or a sitter play with him and show him things. By the time I get to the end of the day I am tired and wish he would just take a nap so I can unwind. I feel like I am unable to fully interact with him, and that I am missing out by the time he goes to sleep at the end of the day. I just want a little head space to myself so I can appreciate him more.

I wish I could just do mommy things with him all day: go for a walk in the morning before it gets hot, play with him, no rush feedings. It would be nice to cook/enjoy cooking again and keep some semblance of clean in the house also. I want to successfully pursue a hobby instead of get criticized for not doing anything after indulging an interest. My husband does what he can, but it seems like we are never able to get ahead of ourselves.